Jesus Was A Man people!!

Change of pace.

First of all allow me to say that I consider myself a Christian although I express a certain amount of curiosity and respect for all types of religions. Lately I've been ranting quite a bit about a certain subject and so far I've been given no support or understanding for the way that I feel. I'm hoping to change that tide of opposition today.

Where to begin.............
Ok, as christians, who believe in christ as Lord and savior, and who are encouraged to have a personal relationship with him all through our daily lives, sometimes it bothers me that none of them even know his favorite color. Or for that matter what his favorite food was. My point is, think of every other relationship you hold with so many others in your life and you know and for that matter should know everything thing about them. But how well do you really know Jesus. The disciples spent atleast 11 or 12 years with him before he was killed and they never just spoke of a day when they was just kickin it, everything mentioned of him was so pivital, critical, and dramatic. I'm simply saying that it took away something that I don't think people really grasp at times.

JESUS WAS A MAN people, he slept, ate, pissed, took a shit, all of those lil things we are all burden to do from the pretteist face to the most unappealing person you can think of in your life. The MAN blew his nose, passed gas, add body odor if he didn't wash, everything. Those things didn't take away his glory if you believed he was the Son of God, or that he was God. He was an example of how God intended us to be even with all the ailgments that come along with being human in this world. And maybe it's a temper tantrum but I want more, like anyone would want more when they are in love with someone, I want to know him more personally and I think we all should. I can't sit down and worship like Catholics do because it's seem so ceremoniously drawn out and staged(no offense), but when I think of all the people I love in just plain human nature, I don't approach them that way, which is probably why so many more can't relate.

My site/blog is named after a book a read some years ago, very hard read. It's subject is about original sin, the tragedy behind Adam and Eve's transgretion. But it made me realize that sin didn't orginate in man, but in heaven it self when Satan took arms again God. Jealously I believe is the word(amond other things might I add). It interests me alot how people relate to God, inpart because most assume that I don't, but it's not my fault that can't see it.

I just don't like when you take so much from a person, that all you end up knowning is the legend.

Yall be cool.

Mother and Son

On a serious note real quick. Anyone who knows me, knows how much of a Tupac fan I am since I was 14 and first heard "Strickly 4 My Niggaz" his second album. I like the picture he took with his mother the most because it reminds you that regardless of what anyone thinks about Pac he was someones child and I believe, generally a good person. Today I'm gonna cruise my town playing his music in remeberance. I know I speak for alot of people out there when I say "We miss you man."

September 13, 1996................................


I'd also like to take a moment to remember some of my family and homeboys who died before they time. --John "Dakem" Frankin(cousin). Stuart Franklin. Demetre King. Bridgette. Tiffany Elrod(my older sister). Boo. X. Annet. Anna & Robert-for showing me true love.

We all family really though, yall.
"Am I my brothers keeper?" --Yes, I am.

Yall be cool. 

The Act

The thing I treasured most in life was that this word would not effect me. For the most part the last 2 and a half years I've manage to no give a fuck about what any woman I was involved with was doing when not with me. Hell usually I encouraged them to look else where for thier own good. But now we have a probem. I'm talking to "her" on the phone now as I write this post and the topic of cheating came up. At first I gave myself the illusion that I was simply trying to see how much shit I could get away with, but that cheating shit is played out. Besides I've done enough messing around and it's gotten me no where fast. But then it hit me. Dare I say it but I think I would be highly pissed off if someone even touched her sexually.

So now I have to wonder what that means, and how I'm gonna deal with this new found emotion that I've managed to ward off for so long. I really enjoyed not giving a fuck, shit how could this have happened. FUCk!!................. maybe it's cool, maybe I don't have to be one of those couple people. I can do this. What am I saying now, because I have no idea.

Cheating is the farthest thing from my mind right now though I must admit. I think the fore front is the expectations. the remembering birthdays and other random responsibilities that present themselves when you become involved with someone. Oh yeah and the actually giving a fuck that sucks, and still what can I say but, "hey, I really like her."

The fact that I've found someone I really like is beyond me. I just hope supporters and haters will just take a moment and if nothing else be happy for me. I'm really just a lost soul trying to find my way home.

Fall back and let me shine for a minute will ya.
Yall be cool.