I am your Leader

Listen and listen carefully.
Your leader wishes to speak, SILENCE!!!

It has been brought to my attention that some of you don't like the contents of my page. That my truthfulness is not welcomed. This disturbs me. And i like it.

I was gonna issue a public apology on yesterdays posts, but then i spoke to a buddy at work and he advised against it for reasons a care not to share with you all. But in the future i will restrain my self in making comments on peoples negative physical attributes. NOW, back to those of you who would like to remain unmentioned on this page. It's unfortunate that I must inform you that your requests will not be granted, i will write about whoever comes to mind when i sit at this computer. As I said before aswell your welcomed to respond for kick shit at me in retaliation but be careful hehe.
Oh and don't leave jackass comments on here, most of you are well educated and this will not be the arena for childish, and pointless debates. I've figured out how to open my comments option to the public so your more than welcomed to talk trash on here aswell, until i decide otherwise.
So don't disappoint me.

Before I go I also would like to say that I've taken notice how my friends who speak to me on a daily basis, and those i would consider true enjoy the page and my comments about them aswell.
While those oh you who have left to me wonder about your loyalty are nervous about what i may say next or pissed off.(which tells me alot about you might i add) you guys make me laugh.

I'm real and if i like you that doesn't mean i don't see things about you i don't like, I'd like to think that I wouldn't say anything on here i wouldn't say to your face. Plus if you know that when you see me i'm cool with you, then just relax. The people who I don't like on here already know who they are. I'm kinda tired but I hope you get what i'm saying. Everything on here is true so maybe you should take it at face value ask someone what they think and take it in.

Well, i'm gone I just wanted to comment on the feedback I've been getting from Gary. But now you can leave your own so don't be fake about it, click the comments and voice your opinion.

I'm gone, dinner is served.

HEROS and cowards

Men and mice

Julius Ceasar said it best, "A coward dies a thousand deaths, a soldier dies but once.
Tell me.
Have you ever seen someone getting the shit kicked out of them and did nothing. Are you silent when a group of people are picking on someone who can't defend themselves. Are you a bitch.
Come now be honest with yourself, I mean this isn't a question you have to answer vocally.
Knowings half the battle right?

Granted this isn't a hate site, in certain ways i should be sorry for what i say, but at the same time part of me wants to be killed for my words.
That and i can't stand bitches. And i don't mean women, i mean atleast you can fuck them. The men on the other hand are just really annoying.
They say birds of a feather flock together, that just may be why the biggest bitches I've ever known in my life would have to be Ryan, Tommy, and Greg.
And i'm sure they have a bunch of bitch friends to call there own as well.
I'm gonna do this different. THIS IS REAL.

Ryan- Man i really hope you read this one day. Your a bitch. I'm not saying this to be mean, and then again I am. But really, do you get up, look in the mirror in the morning and think to yourself "i'm a bitch." You can be really cool man which also makes you sooo dissapointing. I know every girl you ever dated was fucking someone else and you know it as well, and you still date these bitches. Not only that but your a punk and have no true concept of truth and keeping your word. By the way Nikki that black girl i hooked up with said you gotta small dick and that you fuck like a jack rabbit, i just thought EVERYONE should know so i put it on here. (probably why they all cheated on you.) Hehe does that piss you off man. WELL fuck you. You got some nerve being pissed at me after all the shit I went thru just being a friend to you. I want you to hate me bitch, just like I hate your Bitch ass.

Tommy- Sorry man, but your a bitch too. And so is your sister but you know that already. You spent enough time sitting up in your room dealing shit out on Ryan that i thought you should get it too. I'm saying your the same guy who fell in love with a hoe, who you knew was fucking you on the side. You and Ryan got this thing about turning hoes into housewives and i don't get that.
You can't turn a hoe into a housewife man. Btw don't get it twisted i've never been fake to any of you guys. Thats why i have to be extra bold on here, so when you see me, theres no misunderstanding. You couldn't even be real on your site half the time. And no one respects your word even more than Ryan. No one i know, and thats real. Hell your so fucked up you probably don't even care. EAt a Dick, you fuckin Hypocrite. You hated on Ryan then turned around and did the same thing. In my book both of you are pussies.

Greg- Your a bitch too. If i got into some shit i wouldn't even expect you to jump in. And you know i shouldn't. By the way sometimes you got B.O. , the other times you just smell like pennies.(take it in) Ryan wanted to tell you aswell, but.. well he's a bitch. Haha we know when any of you is dating cause we won't see you for a few months, no one will. I'm gonna give greg a break though, theres nothing i can really tell him about himself that he doesn't already know. I think he's just guilty by association. Alot of people like Greg and I have to concur when it comes right down to it. He's done little things to piss me off, but thats part of being friends. He's cool for kicking it, but i expect nothing more.

Now granted it's been about a year since i've even spoken to the people above and they may have changed as time brings change. But i strongly doubt that. (Strongly)
I'm gonna continue to ball cause that is my way.
And no i don't have that big of a chip on my shoulder i'm just being real. I needed a new topic for the page and i thought about these bitches and said fuckit.(Don't worry I'll leave them alone for awhile.)
I hate a liar more than i hate a thief,
money comes and goes but don't fuck with the truth.

Oh yeah Heros, hmmm..........just take the opposite of these bitches and there you have it, that sums that up.

I"m gone fow now.

P.S. Jim is a bitch



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DOOM

Ambition

No one captures this word more than marvel's Dr. DOOM.
Let's face it, deep inside.....most of us want it all.
Plus it's always exiciting to get something you feel you should'nt have.
Ya know, choice and control are the same thing. With that said i scare myself sometimes when i wonder into thought. I mean like religion for example. Sometimes it seems like an attempt for mankind to control the main thing thats out of his control. Life it self.
Gods the middle man almost and you can choose him and live forever. Or don't and die.
It's all up to you.
Now is that control or what.
Hehe basically makes anything else I do with my life a complete waste of time, which i suppose is what most clergy of the church will say. Most of us are doomed at birth because of our parents and upbringing, or what country we live in, or just because we're weak.(in the mind)
So i guess only the strong will survive if you let some tell it.
This whole life gig is stacked against you.
Everything thats fun, or taste good, or is gratifying in anyway seems to be bad for us.
Though some find the boring stuff, gratifying(liars) then look down on us and say that we're
wicked and thats why we like what we like.
If your one of those people theres something i'd like to say to you.
"Everybody kissing ass, aint going to heaven"

Oddly enough as much as i like DOOM i don't have his ambition(obviously right), and if someone asked me what my ambition was i think i would be only to BALL.
Actually on a deeper side it would be know exactly what the hell i am. Thats the ultimate question you can ask yourself. That way wether your going to hell, or heaven or just going to be dead. You'll know who and what you are, and not just be what some other guy says you are.
Shit I'm rambling again. I'm gonna go to bed, i hope somebody understands what it is i'm trying to say.

I'm gone

P.S. GRAVEL BEFORE DOOM!!!!

DOOM

Girls, Girls, Girls

Women

The joy, the pain, the sex, the ex.
This PL post is dedicated to all the girls I've loved before.
I can't lie, I'm a sucka for love and lust. I mean nothing seems to make the day better than a call or visit from a young attractive lady.
The outward apperance and Ballin mentality might suggest that I'm a playa(i get that sometimes) I'm not like that, though sometimes i think i should be.
I lost my virginity when i was 17, fuckit, it's out there. That shit was overrated, and it was a mistake, i should have waited longer. Addiction is an affliction after all. Some have crack, some have liquor, some have weed. Mine is women. DAMNIT!!
And whats even more fucked up is that when i do meet a good woman, I settle in and then get the urge to get out of the relationship. What does that mean? I think i can be shallow sometimes too. I have my days. I think I'm rambling.
Ya know i used to live in a world where i thought what someone told you was the truth, especially when they sware to god or some other form of bullshit people use to make you think they tellin the truth. That didn't work out too much.

I think I don't respect women. I mean I respect them like your suppose to respect anyone. But I don't really respect who they are. It's always the same bullshit, they make themselves seem unreal after awhile.
Everything seems the same, in different ways.
Hehe, what does that mean.
Anyway I see my homies and I'm really glad they found someone of the opposite sex they can stand. Things are just too blurry from where i stand right now, and i'm kinda cool with that, i think it's a phase.
No doubt i'm gonna catch some shit about this post.
I had to get this one out though, i mean i broke up with my girl, my old lady friends are callin me and i'm not interested, I know i'm not gay(FUCK DAT), and when i see a girl who shows interest in me, i'm thinkin "do i wanna put up with this shit right now."
True enough i'm sure bad relationships play a part in this, and i've been feeling selfish lately, i'll post and update on this subject. God I hope I'm not in a relationship when i do.

Holla.

Oh yeah a line was drawn and i choose to step over it.

____________
Jim is a Bitch.



Hey Ladies

When 2 Ballers Meet

We Ball
This is an excerpt from one of the the many times two ballers just happen to meet.
This usual shit talking was recorded live via aol instant messenger, a look into the mind of two equally hardcore ballers.
Hyaugitable=Gary
and
LesTears =Anthony(Lessence)

Shhhhh, quiet pls.

Hyaughitable: 120 gigs Bitch...
Hyaughitable: I ball
LesTears: muthafucka
Hyaughitable: take it in
LesTears: Caligula bitch
Hyaughitable: I'm cleaning the bathroom
Hyaughitable: army of darkness
LesTears: I BALL, PAGAN STYLE
Hyaughitable: being watched as i type
LesTears: Dawn of the DEAD
LesTears: EAT IT
Hyaughitable: fuck it......
Hyaughitable: Spider-Man 2 bitch
Hyaughitable: yeah
Hyaughitable: i got that shit
LesTears: I got the movie and the game bitch
LesTears: I BALL
Hyaughitable: I got the game that's actually good
Hyaughitable: X-box
LesTears: DAMN
Hyaughitable: sitting on the 120 gig hardrive
Hyaughitable: TAKE IT IN
LesTears: shit muthafucka
LesTears: --the plot thickens--
Hyaughitable: ?
LesTears: thats why i'm getting my dick sucked tonite bitch
LesTears: I BALL
Hyaughitable: no comment
LesTears: hardcore
LesTears: yeah take it
Hyaughitable: consider it taken....for now bitch
LesTears: bitch
Hyaughitable: yeah
Hyaughitable: motherfucka
LesTears: hehe
LesTears: thats how every, "hey man whats up: should go down
Hyaughitable: haha....indeed
LesTears: by first proclaimin baller status
LesTears: intensely
Hyaughitable: still got Lesane? did i spell that right?
LesTears: yeah, and yah
LesTears: downloading another demo from game spot


Ballaz

Against All Odds

This is Gary
International Baller,
Thespian,
Seducer of women, poet, writer, ok dresser,
Young, black, and just don't give a fuck.
A guy who likes others to hear him taking a piss, and a guy who happens to be my best friend.
Me and Gary are also the last of those who once walked tall, yet slightly to the left compliments of various liquor and beer. Occasionally we still manage to get a bunch of no good lackeys to come together and have a good time. This isn't an easy task mind you when you hang out with a bunch of guys who hardly ever get to see some real pussy up close and personal. Sometimes we are forced to use threats, money, or whatever creative form of seduction we can to make this delicate process happen..............
Aww fuckit here a quick run down of those once in THE CLiCK.

The Men

Ryan -The Bitch/especially when it come to women

Matt -The hermit, no one really knows whats going on with this guy, or even how to
contact him half the time.
George -The Tall one, he says he'll show but doesn't, an ingenius manuver mind you. It
completely destroys the prospect of confrontation. I mean hey, the guy says he'll
show. When the party gets going, no ones gonna leave to find him. And much
later when you do catch up to him, the excuse is wide open and your too
exhausted from the other loosers to even debate it out with him. (Plus he's a
really cool guy)
Jim -The guy who's always at work and still always broke. Plus he's like a Gatekeeper
fanatic. I'll give him one good thing though. No bullshit, pretty straight
foward guy.( ex.--Hey jim ya wanna hangout? RePLY-->>Yes/No. Ya gotta
50/50 there , but he's true to his word.
Aaron -.............shit man i don't have enough time to write about how fucked up this guy is.
Maybe i'll just dedicate a post decribing the anatomy of the modern hippy later.

Tommy Flo and Greg the sideick--The same two guys me and Ryan took to a strip club and
these muthafuckaz pull out thier gameboy advances and start link playing, Man right in front of tits and ass?!?!
Need I Say More? I think they'll get thier own post aswell.


The Women-not really viewed as women mind you, due to lack of attractiveness

Angela -Gary's eX girl(hehe take it bitch, you dated this chick)the only chink in his armor,
why he dated this girl no one knows, not even him if you ask me. In a word she's
crazy. Getting a ride from this bitch is an experience, she likes to talk so much it
conflicts with her attention to operate a motor vehicle, and thought most don't say it
she goes to far with all that spirit talk. In the old days she'd be burned as a witch and
if you met her it wouldn't take long to see why.

Nadia -Also crazy. Though I wouldn't consider her a bitch.(She dances behind the fine line)
Never the less Nadia is Muslim, and she doesn't help us understand her religion any
better than the jackasses who flew into the World Trade Center. She has this gang of
brothers that'll fuck you up if they even suspect your more than a friend to her, and
a sister who acts as an informer. I think what i still don't understand is why she hangs out with a
bunch of infidels like us. Knowing we share none of her views what so ever about
living in this fucked up world. Some of Stuarts dying words was to stay away from
shis woman(str8 up). She puts our lives in jeopardy every day just off association.
Of course I will say Nadia has her good moments, though few and in between.


There are others but i just wanted to point out the once key players.
Now, if you pissed you name is on here i have three words for you. Eat a Dick.
Your association with me is public property now, and theres no use in me apologizing about whats already done. Also, if theres something you didn't like about "Me" then put it in the comments I really don't care. Half of you people don't even know who I am anymore, I'm sure much of what you say won't even on reflect who I am today. Besides i think it'll be good content for the page so give it a go.

P.S. I BALL and you know it.




Baller

Good Times

I Balled
This is a pic of me and my pops in 1980 i was well over a year old and ballin on the beaches of Hawaii. Notice the food in hand an mouth. I wasn't much of a messy eater by the way. Also notice the wine in the background and the cool haircut.(I'm sure the hair was tight back then i mean come on just look at a movies of those days.) My moms told me that the guy in Hawaii 5-O wanted to do something useful for his public image so when i was born he came and shook my and hand along with whoever else was in the nusery at the hospital that day hehe "Book'em Dano."
Pops was this big time track star back then and i was pushing a stroller or moms was anyway heh "tool". Keeping with the theme though, me and my pops arent really close anymore so i marked this up as a paradise lost. Not to mention i think it would be cool to remember when i didn't even have to wipe my own ass. Anyway the photos show it all, I BALLED since BIRTH. Hataz take it in.

Next post we get down to business so leave ya sensitivity at the door, Holla!!
young Baller

Driver's Seat

Ya know
The drivers seat can be a hard place to be. And for the most part some people don't like to take the lead when it come to taking others to an undetermined location. And your twenties is something like that. I mean sure we all act a fool when where alone in our own cars, and the panic of being lost is more free. Ya know, you can laugh, cry or just beg god to get you back on the right track. But when you have passengers, things can become quite frustrating at times.

So this pic ( the inside of my honda accord) explains the state of The CLick/Paradise Lost. NO ONE took the drivers seat. We all sat in the back. After Stuart blew his brains out someone just put the car in drive and we all pre-occupied ourselves with each other or just random thought and hoped the car, an instument incappable of decision making, would get us where we hoped to go. Hell if you think about it atleast "Stewy" knew where he was going, even if it was to no where at all.
Hell I think by the time the car crashed (figuratively speaking), some of us werent even on speaking terms.
So, if you have to guess how it all came to an end then maybe you don't understand the purpose of all this writing. So PLEASE leave this page, and never come here again.............I gotta go take a shit.
The Whip

Lost Paradise

What is paradise anyway. Some think it's this place where you do nothing but lounge around, eat all day, go for a swim and walk around with a stupid smile on your face. Some of the radicals have this view of getting set up with like 40 virgins (which is quite interesting might I add) but hey if you need people to die for you....i suppose that'll do it. To me, and in this life I believe paradise is a relic of the past, and besides most of us don't recognize it till it's already passed us by.

My paradise lost was spent amongst friends i thought to be close, and it was good even though most of it was a lie. Riding around in my car and heading to KU to write ryhmes with my hip hop peeps who soon fell off to prison, or having to leave the country. (For real)

So, heres my page of pics and poetry to the good times. This is my first real web page but I'm gonna keep up with it so give me time.
Oh and thanx for visiting.

P.s. I still Ball Bitches