Georgie the Drummer

Dominance

This is who comes to mind when i think of my dear friend George.
He's Greek by the way (ladies), though I'm pretty sure Alex was Macedonian.
(Probably the same nationality though)
Anyway I just realized for the most part that I know George, but i don't know him.
In most of our past get togethers during the click George was a no show, most of the people I used to hang out with are anti-social, and for the most part this was expected of George. He has a nack for leaving you wanting more.......in a "hetero" kinda way i mean. Other than when he's with us, I know nothing of his life, be it personal, or loose associations outside of the once forged Click. Oh yeah and he's camera shy.
Anyway Garys leaving soon and I realized that George very well maybe all I have left. And part of me feels like that means I have nothing. Que the vig"Gore"us, process of meeting new people and possibly going thru that whole cycle of getting to know someone, or ones again. And i don't wanna do that.

Oh yeah theres Lisa, but i don't think i'll see much of her after Garys gone, just hunch.

Maybe i should just do what everyone else is doing and follow some girl around town all day.
Hehe, lifes ultimate goal i guess....that and finding the True God anyway.
Back to George.
Anyway I come by and see the guy, wondering how Topeka's managed to hold such a talented drummer for so long, his spaceship just hasn't taken off yet. And i can tell he's not happy with his situation, so i wonder at night whats going on in his life that God would delay his flight.
(Light bulb flashes) Oh yeah, thats right!!!
We're nice guys and DOOMED to finish last.
We just aint deep down enough assholes like we need to be to soar like eagles.
We's just pigeons.
Alexander must have been one cool asshole.
The Greatest.

Alexander

Black Folks

Sugar Shack

I love black people really I do.
At our best we are simply amazing.
Our style addictive, our skin just screams soul, jazz, and rythm.
And I aint tryna sound all pro black africa back to the motherland.
I'm just saying that when i look at black folks I SEE the years of slavery, the butt of depression, the civil rights movement, and the everyday struggle of being black in america.

I met this white chick a few months ago who told me she felt like she was a black person in a white womans body. Immediately i'm thinking "this chick is full of shit". But i'm curious so i let her go on. And as she spoke i realized that she just liked everything that was stereotypical of us and so thats what she embodied. Now I've seen other shall we say "wiggers" like her and in my opinion, i was offended and felt like that was a form of racism.
See before she came to know me, she thought that i smoked weed, and didn't have a good job, possibly sold drugs and, well......she thought i'd be a thug.
I felt like because i was young and black then she profiled me, like the police do. And that didn't sit right with me.
And don't like people who glorify or put down those of us who are lost. Especially if they black.
I'll get more into what i mean by "Lost" in my next and/or future posts.

Another thing that gets under my skin is black folks who don't like black folks. I feel like as long as the children of americas slaves are still breathing and still walking this earth then theres hope for us. If you black and you looking around at the rest of us and don't like what you see, don't give me that I date, or associate with white people/latin people/foreigners, because i don't like this or that about my own people. How you gonna hate what you are, and if you do then "fuck you" when it comes right down to it. I wouldn't hang out with some white guy if he didn't even respect his own. And to most of you fake NIggaZ walking around out there hatin your own skin, you living off what so many died for. Think about how many of us died so you could even look at some white guy or girl, much less date them you lost and ignorant fuck.

Now i'm not a racist, I don't have a problem with interactial dating. And physically for the most part I know that we are all the same. But culturally there are differences that must be mutually respected. Something like that anyway.
As for being black in America, I love living the human experience from this complexions point of view.
Brothers and sisters remember, WE made this country rich when we were considered nothing,(via the cotton trade) and WE have always made major impacts on it's culture thru inventions, entertainment, and my simply being here. So hold ya head up and remember that you stand as a testament to what so many, black and white have died for.
I'm gonna go hop in my new BMW now, I'll catch yall in traffic.

can you dig it, Can you Dig it, CAANN YOUUU DIGGIT!!!

Thats MY Song

Standing on Stage

Black Thought

Laffy was coming to T-Town that night.
I knew he'd wanna hear whatever i was working on when he got there and i wanted to impress him. Laffy was the only cat who really believed in me and my ability to be a good writer.
Be it poetry, or ryhming on the mic.
And he put his money and beats behind(one of the bests producers in lawrence), thats priceless man.
On this particular night we was heading to Kansas City for some hip hop show on Main Street just down from Westport's four corner bar area.
I got three songs done that day "Nonsense", "FreadyFriday", and "ARtWalk"
Thanks to Greg I'd gotten into DJ Yas' beats heavily, I craved his beats and wrote to them often, "Nonsense" was what I considered the finest endeavor.
"FreakyFriday" wasn't really much to me, just some song i wrote to LL Cool J's "Doin it" beat, something for the ladies.
Now "ARtWalk" took me like 2 weeks to write cause the beat was sooo tight I didn't wanna fuck it up with some wack shit being screamed over it.
The beat was complements of "The Mighty Pythons", and man that shit was mind blowing.

Around 8pm he shows up with his wife, (Fuck me i don't remember her name) and i start playing what I got.
"NonSense" is up first, I still think that song is the shit, but it didn't move him much, shit he even started talking during some of it.
Next up was "FreakyFriday", he listened but didn't say anything, NO REACTION what so ever. Not even a comment when it was over, he was just sitting there waiting for the next track.
Oddly enough, actually played last "ARtWalk" was the diamond, I saw the twinkle in his eye, the smile crack in his face, and his head bobbin.
When the songe was over he demanded a copy, and i knew he as back on my dick.
Shine, Shine, Shine hehe.

Ok so we drop off the wife in Lawrence, and head for K.C.
The whole way out there "ARtWalk" is thumpin, over and over and over.
I think he's trying to memorize it, he's already talking about doing a show, it's been on his mind awhile.
I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed, though local, i think I've just wrote my first hit, atleast in my circle I have, and it's good. Looking out the window and into the darkness of the many Kansas fields, I take it in.

The Grand Finale.
We pull up to the spot, it's cool, the city was hype that night, and alot of people was in this joint.
The sponsors were rasing money to combat street violence or something like that, you fill out some survey, make a donation if ya like, then get some pizza and a beverage.
Meanwhile acts are performing on stage.
I think there was like 5 or 6 different performances, and most of them from where i'm standing were really doing the damn thing. Records are being passed out, sold, whatever.
I'm checking the scene and I see Laffy over by the DJ booth talking to this guy.
HE POINTS OVER AT ME.
And i'm thinking "OH Shit!!"
The guy waves me over and asks me my name, my reply, "Lessence".
Laffy looks back and tells me "Man your up next."
I think I'm gonna throw up.
Theres alot of people in here and I'm nervous as fuck, but I've come to far.
I take off my jacket fessing up to what needs to be done, and i prepare myself to do something I'd normally flee from.
When your name is heard over a loud speaker and All eyez are upon you, hehe, it's a moment cherished.
The beat plays and it's me, it's my creation, I'm sharing a moment with these people and giving them a piece of my life.
"They like it, they really like it."
Camcorders are on, pictures are being taken, hell they started cheering as soon as the intro came on.
Beginning the second verse "My motto's Lifespeed/Vibe with me/Words and melodies designed to reach/I'm on the block tryna find the beast/And hype the spot with my ryhming speech".
Now i'm feeling the rush Pac spoke of, thinking about Black Thought, and Mos Def.
Tonight I'm one with those who made hip hop what it is today.
Tonight and from every moment on I can say that I was there, I was doing it, and it was good.

HIP HOP




Free spirits

Damn

Is he for real?


I was surfing the net and i ran across this.
Oddly enough it didn't make me mad. It made me wanna get a gun though.
To be honest I'm worried about stuff like this, I know it's just a matter of time before some poor misguided white guy goes out and grabs a gun (once again) and does something crazy in my neck of the woods.
Also, I'm black, and i don't fit any of the stereo types i see mentioned in the pictorial above.
So I really just sit and wonder where these guys are getting thier information from.
Sure if you look in the ghetto's of america you'll see some fucked up shit, and most of the time it's black people you see, but i've seen the "nigga" version of white people aka "white trash", and they don't look much better. Most black folks suffer economic hardships so naturally you see us more than the latter. And for some of us it's our fault but I don't think it's cool to judge us all just over that. I mean hell I know italians who get upset when assume they all got mob ties.

Pictures like the one above are the reason i get nervous when i'm surrounded by white people, and in topeka hangin with the brothers is kinda like living on the edge somtimes as much as i'd hate to say it. These days it seems like black folks are real sensitive. Real Sensitive.
But i think theres alot of white folks who are just as crazy. I just wish we were more focused upon the threat and gave some direction to the violence. Take it as you will.
Anyway let me throw some cheese on this post by saying "We're all brothers here on earth and we should just get along" Ah thats better.

Hell I got white friends with hygiene problems, and others who are more fucked than that but i don't assume all white people are the same way. Really though fuckit i'm sure i'm not saying anything that hasn't been said before. Guess sometimes i get pissed that not only do I have to worry about white people when i step outside but I also have to worry about brothers/black people, and damn near every other skin complexion. Shit.
I'm thinkin i need to get me a gun, i mean hey,

Everybodies got one.




Thats Cold!!