SoOoOoOo, much insecurity.
Where does it all come from? I get props man, I mean I really get props on this music stuff, and looking from the 3rd person, I can see why. I mean it's good stuff man. REALLY GOOD stuff. LOL, no this ain't no promo. There won't be no link to my shit saying "LISTEN TO THIS" and "BUY THAT". I'm really not into shit like that. Probably why I'm not where most people think I am or should be. On the road, getting money off it. My life is good man, I wake, I stretch, I get my eat on, workout, and hit the block. Got my lil 9 to 5 that pays damn good. And in the late night I write. On my blog or on them beats I get from Cali. On another tip though, I really thought the music would be that easy. Put out hot shit and the yellow brick road would just fall before you. You'd get the Lion, Scarecrow, and Tin man, and be off to see that wizard in emerald city. He'd give me that Porsche I wanted and a phat crib and I could chill. Instead it's about who you know. LOL, I DON'T KNOW NOBODY MAN!!! Still happy though, and I like writing, never gonna stop. Never.
But.....
Like most people I get nervous on stage. Like really nervous. And then I get sick. Nobody knows, but it drives me crazy. And after all the cheers and people coming up to me telling me how great the show was and what not I smile and settle in. Getting on stage is always easier than getting off it. And that's my achilles heel I guess, but I'm a writer not a rapper man. I just like writing to music truth be told. My voice is built for public speaking, but my soul isn't. Well, sometimes it is. There's something euphoric about being on stage when everything is coming together perfectly. Wish I could get on stage more. I think I just need to do that shit till it's nothing to do it, or just get really drunk everytime. Fuck dat though! LOL! Anyway man, I've just peeped that people can follow my blogger these days so i thought I'd give 'em something new to read. Sorry you guys missed out on PL's hey day. I don't know maybe we can start something new.
Peace yall.
