Burn Victims

Bone Deep


Hehe the site crashed when i began writing this post so I wasn't able to finish it, hence the pic of this poor fellow above place alone by itself on the site. My apologies.

Anyway.
With all due respect to burn victims, and that guy. I think in away we're all burn victims. Life burns us all one way or another. Those of us burned on the outside can't hide what fire does to the human form so they carry it as a visual representation of what they've been thru.

Others have been burned to the soul mentally if you will. They carry a concealled bruise that you stumble upon as you get to know them. It's a reaction to draw back from pain, most any animal will do it, instinct I guess you could call it. But when the human mind is burned from experience alone like being fucked over, cheated on, verbal abuse, or just the rantings of an ego gone wild, or ambition, the mind takes up habits/reactions unique to itself. Then makes sense of it all no matter how far fetched that sense my be. The way Tommy falls in love with girls who touch him(burned). Ryan inability to be real(burned). How George jumps to conclusions(burned). Angela I think is a good example of the severly burned, knowning her speaks for itself, to do an example is a post of it's own. This Blog in it's entirety shows how I myself have been burned, but if you need an example, I'm a bit hard on my friends.

The comedy in this whole thing is, you could say that in a parable kinda way that we're all patients in a burn ward complaining about the way the next guy looks even though our scars don't look any better.

That is all.


the Burn

How dissapointing

Tupac shortly after his first shooting, Five bullets lata.

This picture says alot about human nature.
The ability to kick a man when he's down.
And how a man reacts to his peers when they take shots at him.

This is a rant. Again.

My minds is racing at the moment and I'm gonna assume it's because once again i'm slightly pissed off. Anything goes right now. I came home and got an email from my "Good friend" George and i was delighted. See he doesn't do that much if ever. I've also noticed that he's been calling me lately as i go over my messages in the middle of the night. He wants to talk to me I assume urgently it crosses my mind that it's about some money I owe him, but I tell myself that thats already handled so it must me something else. Man was I wrong.
The fact that I ball is in question and it's due, I mean i've been doing too much that last 30 days, even faced some adversity. I'm making it happen though.

Ya know what i'm not even gonna get into anymore details about that because i'm sure we'll handle it, but i would like to say that at this point i don't care for the outcome. But I would like to say that when i purchase things from people they get paid. Yet and still aside from Gary i'm still doubted and that bothers me quite a bit. Unfortunately the powers that be demanded more money for me to rest where I rest and I paid them. I've actually been sitting at this damn computer screen for over 30 minutes trying to see if I was being irresponsible in this matter. But then i think of all the hours I been working to handle monthly bills, and still pay my dear friend George, who (probably dealing with that fact that Aaron has not paid him much at all.) wrote me to question my life style and what i do with "my money" as if until I pay "him", it no longer is.
The angel on my shoulder says "Apologize to him more than you already have and tell him he'll get his money as soon as possible, then offer to suck his dick, it might help."
But.
The Devil on my shoulder says "You've spoken to this man and informed him every step of the way on whats going on, he's seen you on many occasions and smiled in you face, and even told you it was "cool man", then he took this cheap shot and called you out online and questioned how you get down as if you was taking a shit on him. So do just that.

Never-the-less, I will continue doing what i'm doing I'll let him decide on whether or not to be the cool guys he acts like he is in my presence, or the asshole i got an email from earlier today.

I'm gonna go to bed now, see i'm tired from slaving away at work to pay off friends and my ego, i'm cool with that though.

Fuck yall!!