Sentimental Sometimes

Later in life I'm sure this post my come back to bite me in the ass.
But.... Ever since my bike accident I've been quite weak when watching movies that inspire emotional feedback. In other words if there is a bad, sad, or good ending of great emotion where I used to point and laugh or talk shit. Now I just sit there like a bitch while emotion takes over me as I suppress the urge to smile or frown while simultaneously hold back tears from eyes that always seem to water up.
Sad isn't it?

Todays culprit. The movie Cast Away. Ya know the part when they meet again and your thinking, "Damn she thought he was dead and now he's here, but she married the dentist, and he fucked, and they got kids. Damn and he only made it thru all that shit to be with her." Fucked me up man.
Some of the man is still in me. Like the little voice that wanted to shout at the tv, "Yo man fuck that dude up. He took ya woman. Fuck how long you've been gone she should have waited forever, fuck him up." And the urge to root for really fucked up shit to happen like seeing her hop in the ride with him and just dip out towards the very end with no regard for husband and child left behind.
Funny how we watch movies sometimes hoping for a different outcome.

Probably just should have cried about all the stuff that happen to me that day of the accident and got it out the way. I held back though. Maybe I still am?

Yall be cool.

Shitty Set Backs, but it's looking up.

New MIxTape out. "Love Potion #9" Checkit out on my myspace it you haven't already. The entire download info is on my man LoveJOnes site.

Hmmm, anyway I've lost some friends which is typical though I'm not loosing any sleep over it. Still single by choice and nothing monumental has changed other than I've been writing songs like crazy. I don't know where it's coming from but it's good. Unfortunately if you let some tell it (especially women) I'm still an asshole. Some girl told me I was needy which I thought was hilarious, got dissed again by an old nemesis (another girl), and meanwhile dealing with the ones still in my life who are trying to control me for the most part.

Lately, I've grown really sick of the games people play. I don't like how I'll say one thing, and after that it's being decoded like theres something deeper. Meanwhile i'm getting all these coded messages that i'm suppose to figure out. I mean what I mean what I say, and say what I mean.

And for the record I don't play games with women, I don't lie to them, I'm not a player, I don't think I'm better than anyone because of what I have, and I don't throw my success in anyones face. I am proud of myself and I speak on that from time to time, because I used to be broke as fuck. I've been thru shit that ain't easy to climb. And I had people holding me back while I was getting where I wanted to be. LOL, but i'm good..... today anyway.

This feels kinda like a rerun I know. I've gone over this before I know, but I'm still defending myself and the public view of me. Could be because of my attitude towards things I don't know. Anyway not that that's over wit and I have another computer it's time for me to get back to business on here. No pics as of yet but they will be coming soon. 08's gonna be a good year. Oh and we're doing a show at bullfrogs live this 26th the day after christmas.

I gotta get going so I'll holla. Yall be cool.

P.S. Thank nikki for this wack ass post. I don't know why I let her get into my head.