I was going thru my blog the other day and was realizing it's really crazy how it all "worked out".
As I put it all together, it's been one hell of a story ya know.
I mean it's almost crazy how you can feel like you've been standing in one place the whole time only to find you've actually travelled so far from where you were.
Anyway, some where along my travels I feel like I dropped something. Misplaced even. I mean, I used to get on here and show my ass. Knowing full well that anyone would stumble upon my statements and feel a certain way about it or even me. I was almost moving into a realm of narcissism, not even giving a fuck what anyone thought anyway.
And I liked it.
Any reaction was a good one during my mid twenties. All I wanted was feedback, like as long as no one turned the mic off I was ready and willing to continue running my mouth to the masses. (lol or any small crowd who would listen.)
I look back on my posts as a testament to my time, my thoughts, and my aspirations. As well as my sadness, my hate, and my despair. I knocked my inner walls down and let the light shine on my soul........ maybe that was too deep. You get the point.
If you think about it time doesn't fly, it just moves constant. Like we all do I try my best to capture moments that have already passed after the last word is written or picture taken.
Still I can appreciate how the experience of livings molds us to be who we are. Even so, I gotta say that I really miss not giving a fuck. And I wanna bring that back. I think I need that. Hell, to some extent I think we all do ya know. There is a freedom in it. Maybe I'm rambling, I really don't know. I'm gonna start reaching for that glow again, that power, because I need my arrogance as well as my fear. Besides the future is one of those thing you never know about. Best thing you can do is hold your head up, and put one foot in front of the other.......
You feel me?
